This song has been on the works since August and it's about 3 things.
First is about my inner conflict between me staying in the phandom after 2 years of devotion. I really don't want to leave but I know at some point I will and due to 'drama' that occurred in Twitter + my retirement for running a fan account I've created in 2015, I felt like I could no longer take it but at the same time, I wanna stay.
Second is about me wanting to mature and grow up as I still can act childish, ignorant and stubborn. I feel like it's time to ditch holding on to childhood and finally growing up but I know when doing so... life will end up being boring for me.
Lastly is about my relationship with my online friends as since I love so much, I tend to wind up being the eldest + with my adult responsibilities, our schedules clash so I hardly get to meet them IRL, meaning that I'm no longer young and I'm just fooling myself.
lyrics
V1:
There has been so many things in my mind
Conflicting with each other every single day of my life
I know it’s hard to let something go
Even if it's part of who you are
Pre-Chorus:
But maybe now’s the time
To say goodbye
Chous:
Time to grow up
Time to let go
Time to forget the things you know
Time for me to find better things to do
You can’t stay for long
You know you don’t belong
You know it’s wrong for you to stay
There has to be another way for you
To move on
Time to grow up
V2:
Thank you for everything you’ve done for me
Thank you for giving me these new memories
I won’t forget everything we’ve done together
But now’s the time for me to go
Pre-Chorus:
But how can one let go of something
If it’s your everything?
Chous:
Time to grow up
Time to let go
Time to forget the things you know
Time for me to find better things to do
You can’t stay for long
You know you don’t belong
You know it’s wrong for you to stay
There has to be another way for you
To move on
Time to grow up
Bridge:
Everyday it’s been a challenge
You don’t know what I’m facing
I’m tired of feeing this way all the time
I now need to break free
Pre-chorus:
I need to find out what I wanna be
And it starts by leaving you
Chous:
Time to grow up
Time to let go
Time to forget the things you know
Time for me to find better things to do
You can’t stay for long
You know you don’t belong
You know it’s wrong for you to stay
There has to be another way for you
To move on
Time to grow up
A dreamy co-mingling of hyperpop fizz and dark ambient thump from NYC's ORACLE666, billed as a "book of astral love spells." Bandcamp New & Notable Sep 1, 2021